Lunch at Smoky bones

Yes that is an R32 pace car!

It has been a year since Mélaine died. What an incredible year. I have been through depression, anxiety, anger, resentment, hopelessness and helplessness, and beat it all. Counseling, Friends and Family, medications, exercise, diet, a break from work and God have brought me through it.

I have chosen not to remember her on this date but on her birthday. That was the day that the world was a bit happier, a bit brighter. But of course I must say something on this date.

As I said in her memorial, I am getting on with my life as Mélaine wanted me too.

I hope you are all doing well and the day is not too hard for you.

Love to My family, Luc and Claire, Ann and Jerry, Peter and Avril, Mom and Dad, Wendy and Alan, all Cousins Nephews and future lumps, Aunts and Uncles and Grandparents, Friends and family and Blog-watchers everywhere.

Say hello to let me know you are still there.

Keith

Please click pics to see…

We are all very happy and it was a wonderful day.

Hope to speak to you all soon.

Love the Family.

I have met a wonderful woman. Her name is Jodi and she gets me… and I get her.

She makes me laugh and she shares in my tears. She has known about Mélaine and Jay and I for a very long time from afar.

She does not need me but she wants me. I like that.

Love is a beautiful thing.

Easter was great! 

We went down to Ann and Jerry’s 

I will post a video soon.

Hope you are all well

We went to Chicago on Saturday for an over night. Jay and I went to the Museum of Science and Industry.

It was great! We stayed in the Sax Hotel, which was recommended by  Bob. I now recommend it as well.

It was a really fun trip. 

We are doing quite well. Here are some pics.

In what movie have you seen this car?

We went on a short day trip.

It was fantastic. Nice to get out. We drove a short 3 hour trip to Dayton OH and went to the AFB Museum.

It is the biggest one I have ever been to. Jay and I loved it. Hope you enjoy the pictures.

Be happy if you are not seek to understand why. If you can figure it out then take steps to fix it. If you can’t figure it out seek out help. Don’t wait. Every day that goes by is irretrievable.

Today, on Jay’s actual birthday, Feb 9th I came home to a boy who was not well. He was holding his side and said his tummy hurt. We were supposed to go to Bob Evan’s for pancakes, but instead we went to ER. I am a bit jumpy when it comes to Jay being sick. But I have never been wrong when I do need to take him. Jay was in agony, and of course we went to the RediMed 1st. The doctor there was great. He told us that Jay’s tummy was distended and we needed to have a picture taken.

So then we went to the Lutheran Hospital, the same hospital Mélaine was in before we went to Cleveland.. Now I have never really liked to be in hospitals, but I am not freaked out about them. And I have been back there before this because Jay has his Pediatrician visits there.

But when we got to the ER it was a bit too familiar. This was the place that we took Mélaine when she 1st had her horrific pains and started on the pain meds and took the 1st ambulance ride. So I was doing OK. And was really telling myself it is cool… not panicking at all.

Then they took Jay and I back into the rooms and they fricken put us in the exact bed that Mélaine was in that night when the whole real mess began… It was just a bit to much… He needed me and so I rubbed his tummy and started my breathing exercise that I have learned to calm down. But after being alone for 1/2 hour literally lying in the bed that she laid in I freaked… I called the nurse but instead of asking for her, I asked it the would get my Mom… a 40 year old man asking for his Mom. she said she would get her and another 20 minutes went by.

So I finally got up and told Jay I would be right back. Not wanting to leave a 5 year old in a bed by himself, I ran out of the emergency room to the waiting room and said rather calmly, “Mom do you want to come in to the room”?

Yes it is nice to have your Mom around even if you are 40. 

So she came in and sat and then I escaped to the cafeteria to get some food for us. When I got back I was a bit calmed down. They drew blood from Jay and he Cried… and the took an X-ray of his tummy and then told us he was… constipated… a boy who eats cucumber, broccoli, strawberries, has soy milk, and loves apples and grapes… So what is the deal?

So we got him some laxative and came home and he said…”Papa, I have to poo”.